Saturday, November 28, 2009
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Being alone is a really sad thing! Nobody loves being alone! But its better off being alone than being with someone whom u do not like or who doesnt like you... Love is always on both sides. If you love someone, but that someone doesnt like you, it wouldnt work out.. ...Nothing will work out... Similarly I wouldnt allow myself to be with someone whom I do not like... I really hope it would happen but then, I really do not like anyone to feel bad and avoid me like plague just because I like her but she doesnt like me. I dun like to make anyone feel sad because of me. I feel that I do not like someone easily but whenever I do like someone, the feelings would conquer me. Love is important in my life! I take it seriously! I cannot afford to have history repeat itself. I really pray that god, you will know how I am feeling right now and you will arrange everything for me nicely. I am a very very emotional person... Loving someone has no reasons behind it. Its just how Jesus love us isnt it. I can like ask god why he loves me and he would reply " I just love you! " Hais... everything is just my fault.. I didnt know what to do about anything anymore. Living one day at a time now... really hoping that my life would change... but I really do not know how to change it.. :( Is liking someone wrong? :(
My life right now is just very boring and tired. It is always filled to the brim with PROJECTS, HOMEWORK, FYP GROUPING PROBLEMS ! Nothing seems to be interesting at all and all I am holding on to is that glimmer of hope that is my trust in god! I know everything happens for a good reason for us to learn from mistakes. But my brain can only take up to a certain limit of stress! If ever it exceeds, I think I would encounter depression :( Hais... Stress is already taking its limit in me :( I really felt sorry to my cell group leaders for not sharing my thoughts with them.. Because I am a really problematic guy already. They already had so many stress on their side, I really dont want them to worry for me :( Sometimes, I really think that i really cannot take it if the stress still prolongs... I really need you god! or my life would really be ruined...
Labels: Its only that glimmer of hope.
losing my grip. [1:23 AM]
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