Back to my blog... Had bee quite some time since I blogged.. Cos I was L. A . Z . Y . !!! Bleah!
Okay... Lets update... :)
From today till mar i would be quite busy
As all the projects and exams come pilling in on me
But I would still be able to go out on weekends after church and sometimes on certain weekdays !
Life is never easy...
But no matter what, do not give up
Because every single thing that happens in our life comes with a purpose that is for our own good
As God has his reasons! :D
And... treasure those people in our lives whom we care about
Because everyone is Unique and thus Irreplacable
:D
losing my grip. [11:39 PM]
Let everything be upon you lord!
If its for me, I would be very happy,
If not I believe God have his reasons.
Lord take control over my life.
Bless me to have the correct thinking!
Teach me how to love someone wholeheartedly!
No matter what happens,
I know that its all for my own good!
No matter what happens,
I will always honor your mighty name
You will always be my god
Forever~
I promise!
Please bless me and help me to keep this promise even after I die.
Thanks for all the countless things and opprtunities you had added on to my life!
Thanks for being there with me in whatever I do!
Thanks for your big sacrifice for our sins!
Without you, I am nothing!
I am just hoping my dreams in life would come true
I would do my part.
because I know you would help me.
No matter what happens...
Amen!
losing my grip. [12:41 AM]
Some of my friends had been mentioning that my blog is only filled with words and its very boring... Ya I know. But the main purpose of writing my blog is not for pple to see.. it is for me to keep track of my life status... thats all! Only those pple who really care would bother to look through my posts. and thats what I want.. If you care, read, if you dont, then dont force yourself :D
losing my grip. [9:50 PM]
I really wanted to go for OITP ... but my mum dun want to spon me go... So sad... :( I hate it when i really wanted to learn something more and i was not given the chance :( 6 weeks in china's largest telecom company eh! Comfirm will learn a lot de loh :( hais... SP subsidise half the fees.. but it still comes up to 1600 sgd payable by cash only :( thats a lot... hais... how i wished i could study with no worries about my school fees... :(
I want to improve more on my piano now when i still have a chance to have lessons... :( my parents are not surportive at all :( What i feel is that parents have the responsibility to take care of their children's education and learning needs and most importantly, be surpportive and encourage me instead of putting more weight on my shoulders by asking me pay for everything myself and asking me to stop my piano lessons... and not be so money minded about everything... money is important, but if you let money decide whether you can do something, you are not going anywhere!
From young, I had not been close with my parents as I was brought up by my maternal grandmother and xiaoyi.. who doted on me perhaps a lot more than my parents. But thank god it was like this and therefore,I was able to come to church and know christ. :D
losing my grip. [11:33 PM]
Thank God~!!
I asked god for a glimmer of hope and I have got it. The dream isnt gone after all. Hahax! What I had always told myself these few months is that no matter what happens to me, be it positive or negative, I will always continue to praise god and trust that whatever happens to be comes for a reason for my own good! What I had to continue to do now is to do my best to fulfil all my goals and god will do the rest. Amen!
Luke 11:9
"Ask and it would be given to you! Seek, And you will find! Knock and itwould be open to you!"
losing my grip. [8:10 PM]
I have no courage to persue it anymore! :(
Things just dont go your way!
But I know theres a reason to it!
Cos god controls everything!
What I just hope for is to see more hope to keep me up and kicking!
In that dream that is going to break!
Cos in god, everything is possible
Sometimes, I can just lay down on bed thinking about it.
Cant sleep and tears just roll down automatically.
Thinking about what to do next.
No courage anymore!
When things are beyond my reach,
What I just hope for is that god, you would do it for me.
Life is getting miserable.
I need more of you to continue on....
Let me see a glimmer of hope.
losing my grip. [5:30 AM]
Feeling so down!
Sometimes I knew something wouldnt happen but I would just go and see it everyday... I really hate myself for being so useless! Nothings wrong with anyone... Its just all my fault for the dumb feeling I am having now!
Was having a conversation with my classmates and we happened to get into that subject. Those who never been through pain before will NEVER know! After the first time getting hurt in a relationship, I knew that love must be double sided! Or else, it would be very painful.. Love is to give and not to recieve. If anyone goes into a relationship to recieve... example.. To be pampered.. or have any other motive, I seriously think its really unfair to the other party. This type of r/s is really unhealthy and if both of them still doesnt want to change their mindset to give instead of recieve, it would eventually fall apart in due time! Sooner or later!
Well! Anyways, If you really like someone, you would not want anything from him/her. Just be loved back can satisfy everything! On the other hand, sometimes you just feel that you wanna give!
Hais! I feel that when I really likes someone, I would keep looking at their profile online! Even though I knew the other party dont have feelings for me. Hais. Its all my fault for all these! I just feel bad. I had been through all these before and I knew love cannot be forced. Hais! Cant help it but keep on thinking about it! :(
Love is patient. Love is Kind. It does not envy. It does not boast.It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. -- 1 Cor 13-4-13
losing my grip. [1:21 AM]
School Reopened!
Loads of things to learn and do!
-FYP project selection due tml! (May be extended)
-GEMS proposal by next tues
-GEMS online work by this thurs
-Maths PBL
-DataBase management ERD project
AND THIS IS NOT MY ONLY STRESS!
Had enough of everything in my life already!
losing my grip. [10:55 AM]
Its 2009!!
Wahahaha! I am glad I am one year older! Meaning that I am 1 year closer to my dreams!
**DROOLING**
I want my own car!!!
I dont know how long its gonna take for me to come out to work... Its at least 3 years away from now! :( But I believe that when I ask him for anything, It would be given to me! Wahahahahax!
**Sharing some of my thoughts**
Life had never been easy for me these past few months! I had broken dreams and many many other stuff to worry about... I feel that I had almost hit my stress limit and I am definitely going through depression! Hais! Had a good talk with Cloud, a new friend whom I met in church. I shared with him about the major thing that had been hindering me for the past two months and I feel a bit more relieved.
He also shared with me about his life. Imagine if my bro is to be beaten up, I think I would go crazy too! :( Hais... It reminds me of Prison Break, where Michael Scofield went all the way to save his brother! Family love like this is just GREAT!
Due to certain reasons, I had thought of changing church... However, it means that my dream of serving as a musician may be gone! and that I stand a very dangerous risk of backsliding as I am the only christian in my whoke entire family and I dont wanna take that risk as I want to be in church for the rest of my life and nothing is going to stop me! Some things are just out of your control. Its all in your hands Lord! All I had to do is to seek you for guidance! I believe that everything happens in my life for a good reason. Its you who writes the story of my life! I can never be more grateful!
losing my grip. [12:45 AM]
*My Name : Goh Chang Hua
*Birthdate : 15 May 1990
*School : Singapore Polytechnic
*Email : changhua90.08@ichat.sp.edu.sg
.:. Loves .:.
*The lord my saviour!
*People who possess good attitude
*Playing interesting computer/console games
.:. Hates .:.
*Smokers
*Betrayers
*Freeloaders in project groups
*Being Alone especially at home
.:. Memory Lane .:.
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
.:. Links .:.
*Benjamin Tan
*BiSi
*Cecelia Tay
*Cher Ying
*Daryl Ho
*Ivy tio
*Joannie
*Lim Waiyu
*Melvin Lee
*Melvin Tsang
*NaiXin
*Qiyun
*RuiXin
*Serene Ng
*Tan HuiLing
.:. Credits .:.
About ChangHua
- 90 percent Melancholic and 10 percent Phlegmatic.
- I stay out of bad company
- I choose my friends
- Very reflective and thus very emotional
- A little indecisive at times
- Perfectionist
- Introvert
Welcome to Changhua's Blog.
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