ChangHua's Blog

1st week in ZhengZhou

2010-03-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

Hey pple. This is my first week in ZhengZhou, China. Seriously, its been a wonderful experience for me. Knowing the chinese culture, working experience, accomodation and work. I would like to take this opportunityto people who specially sponsored me for this trip. My ku ku, Xiaoyi and my mum(after much pestering, she agreed to pay a bit). Hahax..

Taking a plane is just like taking a long bus ride. Just that theres a lot of beautiful scenery and its quite jerky when it is going to land and taking off..

First week in Quanya Comm is still okay :) hahax.. I was assigned to complete a flash banner , which I had learnt before... so its easy for me. We also had multiple lectures by the managers about their company. Their curriculum is more to the BSS option of my course. soi may not be as pro as those in BSS(Broadband Sercurity Services) option in my course. But its always good to learn something new. :) hahax..

Food is cheap and big in quantity. 5 yuan ($1 dollar sgd) for a plate of noodles. it can range from 5 yuan to 12 yuan depending on the variety of the food. Roadside stalls offer 1-2 yuan for delicious local delicacies like their special popiah. (which my friends bought) but the cleaniness of the food is unknown and my uncle advised me not to buy from them.

All I can say for accomodation and everything is really "so far so good"! I am having full control over my expenses,finances clothing and accomodation. Priase the lord. At first I had some probs with my comp , which keeps hanging the whole day and I am unable to do anything . But after that i prayed really hard and it miracally became okay and all the problems are gone! :) thank god! God can do wonders man! :D

Only thing that I am not okay about is that I seem to be missing my friends n family in sg.. :( Especially you... especially you luh... "--e- -u- -i-" :( A person who has nobody he loves have nothing to lose. but a person with loved ones always worries... I really hope that this trip can end asap and I can return to Sg. Furthermore, There isnt really a chance to go to church in China... Cos i cant find one in my area :( hais...

2010-02-23T20:40:00.004+08:00

I called my mum and asked: Mum! I wanna go Overseas attachment!

Mum: CAN!! you pay yourself loh!! *Cups the phone*

*Mum speads the news tt i want to go overseas and gossiping to relatives about why my cousins so "guai" can dont go OITP and I cannot... *

DOTS! Duwan pay say duwan pay la..Why gossip? Why scold? I only asked then u all like that!

Just when I was going to give up on going for the attachment, My Xiaoyi called me and asked me to go and she agreed to pay for my expenses.

**Thank god... I thought I was going to miss this opportunity**

Xiaoyi Says: Go China please remember to apply for roaming hor.. We want to contact you... The bills never mind! Give me the bill when it comes. I will pay.

When I came home, the story continues....

My parents say... roaming very expensive de. I dont care.. I dont let you take ur SIM card overseas..

WTH! It isnt even your money la please!

P.S.This is the first time I am going overseas for attachment. **

Kana scolded for nothing...

It isnt even my idea to apply for roaming lor!

Is my xiaoyi ask me to do de... den in the end, I am the one getting scolded.

So what do you think they care more about?

Money or my well being?

When I was small the ones who brought me up werent exactly my parents.

I doubt anyone will care more la...

Nobody cares... and nobody will...

At least I know that I care for myself and god cares for me.

2010-01-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Back to my blog... Had bee quite some time since I blogged.. Cos I was L. A . Z . Y . !!! Bleah!

Okay... Lets update... :)

From today till mar i would be quite busy

As all the projects and exams come pilling in on me

But I would still be able to go out on weekends after church and sometimes on certain weekdays !

Life is never easy...

But no matter what, do not give up

Because every single thing that happens in our life comes with a purpose that is for our own good

As God has his reasons! :D

And... treasure those people in our lives whom we care about

Because everyone is Unique and thus Irreplacable

:D

2010-01-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

Let everything be upon you lord!

If its for me, I would be very happy,

If not I believe God have his reasons.

Lord take control over my life.

Bless me to have the correct thinking!

Teach me how to love someone wholeheartedly!

No matter what happens,

I know that its all for my own good!

No matter what happens,

I will always honor your mighty name

You will always be my god

Forever~

I promise!

Please bless me and help me to keep this promise even after I die.

Thanks for all the countless things and opprtunities you had added on to my life!

Thanks for being there with me in whatever I do!

Thanks for your big sacrifice for our sins!

Without you, I am nothing!

I am just hoping my dreams in life would come true

I would do my part.

because I know you would help me.

No matter what happens...

Amen!

2010-01-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

Some of my friends had been mentioning that my blog is only filled with words and its very boring... Ya I know. But the main purpose of writing my blog is not for pple to see.. it is for me to keep track of my life status... thats all! Only those pple who really care would bother to look through my posts. and thats what I want.. If you care, read, if you dont, then dont force yourself :D

2010-01-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

I really wanted to go for OITP ... but my mum dun want to spon me go... So sad... :( I hate it when i really wanted to learn something more and i was not given the chance :( 6 weeks in china's largest telecom company eh! Comfirm will learn a lot de loh :( hais... SP subsidise half the fees.. but it still comes up to 1600 sgd payable by cash only :( thats a lot... hais... how i wished i could study with no worries about my school fees... :(

I want to improve more on my piano now when i still have a chance to have lessons... :( my parents are not surportive at all :( What i feel is that parents have the responsibility to take care of their children's education and learning needs and most importantly, be surpportive and encourage me instead of putting more weight on my shoulders by asking me pay for everything myself and asking me to stop my piano lessons... and not be so money minded about everything... money is important, but if you let money decide whether you can do something, you are not going anywhere!

From young, I had not been close with my parents as I was brought up by my maternal grandmother and xiaoyi.. who doted on me perhaps a lot more than my parents. But thank god it was like this and therefore,I was able to come to church and know christ. :D

2010-01-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

Thank God~!!

I asked god for a glimmer of hope and I have got it. The dream isnt gone after all. Hahax! What I had always told myself these few months is that no matter what happens to me, be it positive or negative, I will always continue to praise god and trust that whatever happens to be comes for a reason for my own good! What I had to continue to do now is to do my best to fulfil all my goals and god will do the rest. Amen!

Luke 11:9
"Ask and it would be given to you! Seek, And you will find! Knock and itwould be open to you!"

2010-01-07T05:30:00.003+08:00

I have no courage to persue it anymore! :(

Things just dont go your way!

But I know theres a reason to it!

Cos god controls everything!

What I just hope for is to see more hope to keep me up and kicking!

In that dream that is going to break!

Cos in god, everything is possible

Sometimes, I can just lay down on bed thinking about it.

Cant sleep and tears just roll down automatically.

Thinking about what to do next.

No courage anymore!

When things are beyond my reach,

What I just hope for is that god, you would do it for me.

Life is getting miserable.

I need more of you to continue on....

Let me see a glimmer of hope.

2010-01-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

Feeling so down!

Sometimes I knew something wouldnt happen but I would just go and see it everyday... I really hate myself for being so useless! Nothings wrong with anyone... Its just all my fault for the dumb feeling I am having now!

Was having a conversation with my classmates and we happened to get into that subject. Those who never been through pain before will NEVER know! After the first time getting hurt in a relationship, I knew that love must be double sided! Or else, it would be very painful.. Love is to give and not to recieve. If anyone goes into a relationship to recieve... example.. To be pampered.. or have any other motive, I seriously think its really unfair to the other party. This type of r/s is really unhealthy and if both of them still doesnt want to change their mindset to give instead of recieve, it would eventually fall apart in due time! Sooner or later!

Well! Anyways, If you really like someone, you would not want anything from him/her. Just be loved back can satisfy everything! On the other hand, sometimes you just feel that you wanna give!

Hais! I feel that when I really likes someone, I would keep looking at their profile online! Even though I knew the other party dont have feelings for me. Hais. Its all my fault for all these! I just feel bad. I had been through all these before and I knew love cannot be forced. Hais! Cant help it but keep on thinking about it! :(

Love is patient. Love is Kind. It does not envy. It does not boast.It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. -- 1 Cor 13-4-13

2010-01-05T10:55:00.002+08:00

School Reopened!

Loads of things to learn and do!

-FYP project selection due tml! (May be extended)
-GEMS proposal by next tues
-GEMS online work by this thurs
-Maths PBL
-DataBase management ERD project

AND THIS IS NOT MY ONLY STRESS!

Had enough of everything in my life already!

2010-01-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

Its 2009!!

Wahahaha! I am glad I am one year older! Meaning that I am 1 year closer to my dreams!

**DROOLING**
I want my own car!!!

I dont know how long its gonna take for me to come out to work... Its at least 3 years away from now! :( But I believe that when I ask him for anything, It would be given to me! Wahahahahax!

**Sharing some of my thoughts**

Life had never been easy for me these past few months! I had broken dreams and many many other stuff to worry about... I feel that I had almost hit my stress limit and I am definitely going through depression! Hais! Had a good talk with Cloud, a new friend whom I met in church. I shared with him about the major thing that had been hindering me for the past two months and I feel a bit more relieved.

He also shared with me about his life. Imagine if my bro is to be beaten up, I think I would go crazy too! :( Hais... It reminds me of Prison Break, where Michael Scofield went all the way to save his brother! Family love like this is just GREAT!

Due to certain reasons, I had thought of changing church... However, it means that my dream of serving as a musician may be gone! and that I stand a very dangerous risk of backsliding as I am the only christian in my whoke entire family and I dont wanna take that risk as I want to be in church for the rest of my life and nothing is going to stop me! Some things are just out of your control. Its all in your hands Lord! All I had to do is to seek you for guidance! I believe that everything happens in my life for a good reason. Its you who writes the story of my life! I can never be more grateful!

2009-12-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies as at 29 December 2009

To QiYun A.K.A Xiaoyun:
My life's been very very boring as its holidays and also quite stressful and I had many many stuff to worry about. :( Life isn't a bed of roses eh .. No matter what, we must pull through! Jiayous to you! Hahax...

To HongHui:
Hahax! Long time no contact le! Didn't know that you would come to my blog.. Hahax.. Welcome! :) You can leave down ur blog link if u want me to link you :)

2009-12-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

My mind is really in a big mess now!

My cg-Leader is going to make me a co-worker.. :(

Its not that I dun want to serve la... But then... Based on my own personal traits and character,I dont think I am fit and suitable to become one.

being a co-worker means that you have the responsibility to lead and befriend new friends.

I am very happy n willing to help to accompany new friends but being my personal friend is something else!

Problem is :

Firstly,

I do not accept everyone as my own personal friend as I hold some expectations of my friends and even myself! I dislike smokers, pple who gamble, drink, scold vulgarities or possess Lup Sup Attitude~! Whenever I see pple with bad attitude, I just get turned off.. The straight feeling that comes up next is to block and keep away from that person! There is NO way I could accept someone with bad attitude! Similarly, I hold the same expectations of myself!

Secondly,

I am not a people's person! I prefer to stay alone or only with my respected friends! I am an introvert!

Thirdly,

I feel that I already can barely take up my own stress limit... Not to say about helping others when you cannot even take care of yourself... I feel that my life is already very chaotic. Although I always remind myself that god is good, god arranges everything to happen for a reason, I am ultimately, still an emotional person..

2009-12-13T01:49:00.002+08:00

"It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel."

"A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go."

Sometimes, I really hated my life... but then, I cannot waste away the life which god gave me... cuz I am living it for him! I dont blame god for anything... I just blame myself for being so useless!

2009-12-01T10:38:00.002+08:00

My life is so miserable! There is not a time when I am free from worries. I really dont want to be like this. I hate my life. I feel so directionless right now! Hais.. I had so many expectations in life. But none of them is near at all. I just feel so discouraged. Hais..

2009-11-28T01:23:00.003+08:00

Being alone is a really sad thing! Nobody loves being alone! But its better off being alone than being with someone whom u do not like or who doesnt like you... Love is always on both sides. If you love someone, but that someone doesnt like you, it wouldnt work out.. ...Nothing will work out... Similarly I wouldnt allow myself to be with someone whom I do not like... I really hope it would happen but then, I really do not like anyone to feel bad and avoid me like plague just because I like her but she doesnt like me. I dun like to make anyone feel sad because of me. I feel that I do not like someone easily but whenever I do like someone, the feelings would conquer me. Love is important in my life! I take it seriously! I cannot afford to have history repeat itself. I really pray that god, you will know how I am feeling right now and you will arrange everything for me nicely. I am a very very emotional person... Loving someone has no reasons behind it. Its just how Jesus love us isnt it. I can like ask god why he loves me and he would reply " I just love you! " Hais... everything is just my fault.. I didnt know what to do about anything anymore. Living one day at a time now... really hoping that my life would change... but I really do not know how to change it.. :( Is liking someone wrong? :(

My life right now is just very boring and tired. It is always filled to the brim with PROJECTS, HOMEWORK, FYP GROUPING PROBLEMS ! Nothing seems to be interesting at all and all I am holding on to is that glimmer of hope that is my trust in god! I know everything happens for a good reason for us to learn from mistakes. But my brain can only take up to a certain limit of stress! If ever it exceeds, I think I would encounter depression :( Hais... Stress is already taking its limit in me :( I really felt sorry to my cell group leaders for not sharing my thoughts with them.. Because I am a really problematic guy already. They already had so many stress on their side, I really dont want them to worry for me :( Sometimes, I really think that i really cannot take it if the stress still prolongs... I really need you god! or my life would really be ruined...

Life is getting Boring

2009-11-16T13:57:00.002+08:00

Life is getting more boring and miserable for me! I thought that I had became optimistic after being through serious problems with my life a few months ago... but in fact, I am still who I am. I am born to be a melancholic!

I am a person who do not really "Befriend" anyone or everyone. I only choose the people who are worthy to be my friends! The ones who encourage you when you are in trouble and those who possess good personalities. Thus, my social circle is very very small. and friends whom I respect are important to me. How they feel affects me.

One bad habit of mine is that I always do not express my true feelings out correctly! For example, if there is someone whose character as a friend that I do not like(Eg.Ppl who smoke, ppl who have bad attitute), I would not show any symptoms of hate or any usual feeling or bad attitute. Instead, I would just stay normal and do nothing about it. However, I would feel very uncomfortable when these type of people get close to me. & vice-versa. I know its bad to stay away from bad company and I would just try my best not to!

I really got many many things to say. There are so many stress within me. :( and I do not feel good at all. Knocking out one of my most important dreams is just merely rendering my life to be very aimless!

2009-11-02T00:07:00.004+08:00

Today I just cleared a huge mystery in my heart today... Hahax... I really thank the other party for being so honest about everything. After my first experience in a relationship, I had realised that I need to be sure that both parties must really love each other for it to be successful and that what is truly yours would be yours cos the lord had already prepared everything for us :) So no matter what, I would just like to praise the lord for everything! :) Hahax... As for that person, I really thank god that she was very honest about it. Hahax... Thank god yeah!! :) Its really by god's grace that she is so nice and honest. and its my honor to know such a person. Hahax..

LOVE

What is love? The definition of love in a relationship is really getting blurer and blurer each day. I only know that what I wanted in my partner is to love me no matter what! And after my first bad experience in a relationship, I really wanted to know that the person whom I admire would like me back before I do anything. But its very hard to know whether a person really likes you or not. Thus, in the end, I am so afraid of doing anything to please the person and ended up acting wierd! And when I am acting wierd, I really do feel uneasy and wanted the uneasyness to go away. In the end, I am really doing nothing about my love life and what bad impression I had made of myself. Hais. Sometimes, I just question myself! What should I do? How should I react? I really cant live without love but then if whenever I like someone, I aint doing a thing about anything, theres no where I can go. Love cannot be forced. Its very hard to find someone that you love who loves you back too. But I believe that god will entrust a partner to me soon. A partner whom i love and truly loves me! A partner who have lots of faith in god... I wanna have a car a flat and most importantly, start a good family.

2009-10-08T00:12:00.002+08:00

started on a bit of flash for my CG :) just a bit.. I m not rushing to finish it cos i dun want it to be a slip short work :) * Note that the flash appt in the previous post done by me in an hour only.. it ISNT complete. I only coded the link for the first button.. will continue tml after work.. or else i will peng... hahax..

2009-09-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

We knew this is going to happen and we are already prepared for it. I have prayed for him but I guess the time had came. Hais. My paternal grandfather died today at 3.30pm :( , leaving me with no more grandfathers. (although he is not really close to me) Hais... Actually, can say is quite a painful death, cos he had kidney failure,heart problems, difficulties,etc,etc and the doctor had already told us that he is already hopeless when I visited him on thurs.

Okay heres whats going on down at my grandpa's place right now as I am blogging. All my relatives are now down there dressed in "Toi Toi Coil" uniforms and burning incense paper except me. (I am at my maternal grandma's place in CCK ) Okay la... tml early in the morning, I am going already. But no matter what, because of god's sake, I will NOT do anything regarding the ritual or wear their ritual uniform or burn any incence paper. I know what I am doing and my sole purpose.

Sien sia... I am the only christian among all my family and relatives. I know it would be hard on me if they do scold but I have my stand. For christ! Amen!

now recapping... today... bla bla..

Today :)

Sunday church as per normal :) hehe... Actually I enjoy gng to church la.. hahax... Love the praise n worship. :P Hahax.. After church we went to vivo to eat then we went to harbourfront centre to pei them study and after that we sat down at mac to chit chat. hahax... Super nice sia... I really enjoy going out with church buddies ! :) hehes!

Then after that at night, I went to Boon Keng to exchange my badminton racket. Thank god the nice shop keeper called me to tell me there is a minor problem with the racket as that shipment got a bit of prob :) Then after that,I took bus to Hougang to return my book. Actually "she" suggested to help me return de, haha ... but because I also shun bian then dun mafan her bah :P Hahax... She got that intention to help me when I need help, I am already feeling very happy and blessed already, just what more would I ask for :) Hehe

Okay bahz.. I think I better prepare to rest already! Tmr I would have the whole day sitting down at the table at the funeral eating peanuts liao... :( Better rest...

2009-09-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just wonder what I should do or react towards certain things.

Love works only if both parties love each other for who they are and not because of just trying to love someone back just because that person love u a lot. It wont work at all.

Today, one of my friend told me that she is going out with some guy and that guy is like having feelings for her but she does have any for him. That reminds me about how I am feeling towards someone else. I do love someone, but dun know whether she love me back or not. I think I would feel most blessed if ever the person whom I love also love me back as much :) I think this would be my greatest blessing in life and it would make my life very very meaningful and interesting.

I am no longer to be like last time, I dun want to love someone who had no feeling for me. I dun want to fall in love alone because I had such bad experiences before and I dont want history to repeat itself again! I wont accept someone who loves me but I dun like and similarly, I dun want people to agree to be my partner just because I love her. Single sided love is very miserable. And I dun want it to happen again!

Whenever I think about this everytime, it really makes me feel really bad. I want to do more things for her but I dun know what to do as I dun know she love me or not. I am not someone who can take love that easily and just for fun. Because I live life to love and be loved both by god and my partner and thus, I take love very seriously. I dun want to go into a relationship again with no idea whether my partner also love me back or not.

So far only two people know who I am referring to... haha.. Siew Choo is the smartest sia. Straight away guess correct sia.. Since its correct I also dun want to lie to her... hahax... So I told her the truth.

I already know what I want in my life. :) I just need god's grace to be with me ... So close yet so far.

2009-09-11T16:11:00.002+08:00

Whew

Today was a very happy day but also a very stressful day for me especially during the TP test. Haha. Will elaborate more below :)

TP Test Experience

You know how much I was worried about today's test since yesterday night when I reached home. I only managed to sleep for like 2 hours from 1am to 3am despite me forcing myself to sleep. Then I was awake throughout. Very worried and praying to the lord for my test results.

Eventually when I came to BBDC for warm up at 7.30am, its still okay because I wasnt nervous in front of the instructor.

But...

When its test time, I realised that my instructor is a bit fierce. Opps. I was thinking.. this time siao liao. How ah? Would I need to have a retest? How long can I wait to get my licence? How much extra money should I spend on a retest. I was extra careful when I was in the circuit and thank god I managed to complete all the circuit courses including the two types of parking smoothly. But at one point in the circuit, I was told to turn left into the main road then turn right. But I didnt notice its one way traffic so I remained in the left lane till I saw the sign.. OPPS! minus 4 point for using wrong lane. Cos I thought it is a two way road. But its a 2-lane one way road and I still kept left so I bo pian have to turn right using the left lane. So I was worried and very demoralised. But thank god everything else is okay for circuit.

Ok after that we went out to do main road driving. Forgot which test route number but its from BBDC to teck whye and back. No slopes but there is heavy lane-changing and U-turn. It was all okay until I reached the 3-lane heavy traffic road. I was supposed to keeep to the left most lane when I turn in through the right lane. So I began to change lane slowly and cautiously! I Signalled and began my lane change! "Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock!" It took me quite a while to lane change but I still managed. After I was in the left most lane , "Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock" ... "switch off your hazard light!" .. I replied "Huh!?!?" Then the voice came again : "SWITCH OFF THE HAZARD LIGHT!" Then I replied "okay okay... sorry :( " I guessed I was so nervous till my heart also caught the rhythm of the hazard light sound and also go "Tick Tock Tick Tock" with it . This time I was thinking.. Opps! 2 mistakes already! I was still okay when I went for the warm up leh but why am I like that? My left leg with the clutch pedal was shivering non-stop all the while whenever I reached a corner .

Why am I so nervous. At that point of time I wished god would take over my body and drive so it would be more perfect.

I proceeded on.. Keep thinking of the mistakes I have made and glancing into the Tester's laptop to try to figure out what he is trying to input into the system. It all went on smoothly again until I reached the left-turn Junction followed a U-turn shortly after it. After I turned left, I was supposed to keep right and enter into the filter lane for U turn. But then the traffic was a bit heave and after I turned left, the car behind be turned into the right lane straight and dun want to give way to me to turn right, wanting to overtake me. I didnt had much time to think and I just qickly switched over to third gear and acceralte as fast as I could to overtake him. But I got check blind spot before I moved in luh! Then the voice came : "Waa very near leh ! " I was super nervous liao. abrupt lane changing ! OPPS ! Summore after I enter the filter lane, the speed of my car was a bit too fast because I had to move fast to cut over because the person behind dun want to give way!

I was already very nervous so I kept asking.. "Can I still pass?" Then worse still.. the reply came was : "Concentrate on your driving first!" I thought this time die liao. Will I pass or not?

After I reached back to BBDC , I asked again:"Erm... So I pass or not?" ... The reply is :"Wait for me at the second floor" Wah... Super worried liao.. Would I fail? Summore even worse. Some people beside me are not getting their licence! Then I was thinking how ah how ah. Every second was painful to me and I longed to see my results

When the results finally came, My grade --> 8 demerit points --> 4 for abrupt lane change and another 4 for using wrong lane for turning in the circuit because of the one way road. The "tick tock" case was waived. Whew. I passed!

Then when I think back. Actually, god had really blessed me with a lenient tester. :) Hehes. Though Jesus, everything can be made possible! :)

2009-09-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hais... How I wished I could. How I wished I can.. How I wished I had .... How I wished... :(

2009-09-07T17:36:00.002+08:00

Today is the day where eventually i got to stay at home throughout the day. It had not been like this for a few months where I go out every single day. It isnt nice at all. because it is super boring. Hais.. How I wished my life would change to be more interesting and less boring. Hahax.

Today

I woke up at 1.30pm because I slept only at 5am the previous day, chionging dota.. :P Hahax.. After having my lunch, I practiced about 6 bars of grade 2 sight reading. Sight reading is still ok luh.. hahax... Just need to practice more :) hahax.. Not going to take my piano test so soon cos I wasnt really fully prepared for it. Hahax. I practiced a bit of guitar chords also... F major is hard on guitar... hahax... :P

Just longing for wednesday to come. Then can go out with cg le :) hehes

2009-09-03T23:50:00.002+08:00

Today! :)

Heh! came back after a tiring but enjoyable day out with Keith, John , Grace , Angeline and Johnathan! Woohoo! Firstly, we met up at Woodlands MRT and then we took a bus down to grace house there to meet her and go to the gym.

Actually Hor, we planned to walk over there de cos johnathan liao seems to have gone there b4 but in the end we got lost and went up and down the escalator leading to the Woodlands bus interchange like 3 times. John and I were like racing up and down the stairs with keith cos the escalator wasnt on! Lols.. thats our gym warm up already! Fun siah .. But then sadly to say john injured his leg when he was climbing the stairs cos he was wearing slippers and that the escalator steps are sharp.. the whole skin peel off his leg siah ... like 2 cm square area of skin siah.. should be very painful for him... :(

Then after we went for gym, wewent to hawker to eat.. Keith,John and Angeline ate Botak Jones while Grace , Johnathan and I went to eat chicken rice cos its cheaper
Wahahahax... Then we went to play Lan.. 2 hours --> 1 hour CS and second hour L4D..
CS is fun cos I own! Wahahahax! L4D is a bit sien sien cos not enough peeps for the human part and the group who became human always lose... Hahax... Overall,its still very enjoyable and fun but sad to say, during my second hour of lan, I got stomachache and in the end I endured it all the way till we walked back to causeway and I relieved myself ... And thanks to the rest for waiting for me although I asked u all not to :) Hehes!

Overall today was a very very very fun day and I am very happy :) Hehes I think it would be even more fun if Lily and Ruixin came :) Wahahahax! Too bad they r busy... perhaps next time bahz! :P

Now ~~ :)

Now I feel like playing dota eh! :( but lazy to bring my lappy out to my living room table cos my room table in my room (at my grandma house) is clogged up with my stuff. Tmr I would be having Bible study with Ruixin, Derek and Lily and after which, we would be going to be celebrating Naixin's belated bday :) Hahax...

Lord I just thank you for this wonderful day out! :) I know you love us and will always prepare the best for us! No matter whatever thing I would face in life be it good or bad, I would just thank you for everything because I know that bad things are learning experiences prepared by you to help add value to our lives and good things are the rewarding gifts that you, as our spritual father would grant us when we really do cherish what we have! Through you, nothing is impossible! You have taught us to love people just like how you have loved us! And I would like to pray this in Jesus' holy name! AMEN!

2009-09-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

Recounting time! Haiya! Long time no blog.. Cos keep going out and thus, busy playing lan..

Recounts :)

-Last fri --> Went to Hougang gym with Ruixin :) Enjoyed myself but realised that I have lots to do before my army

-Last sat --> In church as usual

-Last sunday --> Went out with john , Keith and some other church pple to help John with his O lvl maths.. Then eat at food court beside Vivo and MRTed home at night

Monday --> Pei Jerry go buy button shirt at Bugis (For his ITP) ... Shun bian go Sim Lim buy another 2gb ram for my lappy (total 4 gb now) Then we went to Parklane to play Lan for 2.5 hrs... Spent $4 on Lan

Tuesday --> Lan with Jerry again. Also in parklane but different Lan shop Played warcraft for 4 hours and spent 5 dollars on Lan.

Today --> Piano lesson as usual. Then eat chicken rice at Simei and then meet Jerry and go Parklane and Laned again! Same shop as tuesday 4 hours --> 5 dollars.. Then after laning , we went upstairs to eat and found 1 lan shop even cheaper --> 50 cents/he promotion! wth! Should have played there instead la... if play there onli $2 for 4 hours. We played Warcraft RPG ... quite fun... :)

Other Stuff

Busy eh! Hahax... but fun la... Haiyo ... I suddenly realised that there are so many stuff for me to practise eh... Just practised piano for an hour before I on my comp and blog eh. I gonna start practising until I can reach grade 2 ABRSM piano standard so that I can go for the exam... Btw, I would be having driving test next week. May god be with me in whatever I do! Amen! Oh ya! And tmr, we would be gng for gym ,lan and eat again... but this time with john, keith ,grace and other church peeps... :) Lan again 0.o ... Tis time is L4D I think.... heh! I think none of my Cell grp peeps can go siah... Awww... Nvm... Still got friday Bible study and hangout to celebrate Naixin Bday :) Hehes... Looking 4ward :)

2009-08-27T12:59:00.003+08:00

Today!

- Woke up by my "Auto wake up at 7am" disease
- Very not used to being so free all of a sudden
- Very emotional
- Bible study at 6.30pm KAPT later :)

Thoughts and feelings
Eh hey aargh.. I know what I wanted and I know where I am going in life. But then sometimes I just ask myself, its definitely not wrong to love someone and then hor why am I like this? Yes! I do love someone and I think maybe she is only 50 percent sure I am referring to her. Just see my facebook and you would roughly know who I am refering to already. Its so easy to guess :) haha.. When I write notes in fb, I would always tag that same person...

2009-08-27T09:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is the last day of my exam.. So glad eh.. FINALLY can relax and everything le.. Hahax... Btw, ytd aftermaths I went down to Sim Lim with melvin as promised to buy his HDD player, which will be able to play all formats of videos on the tv from the HDD.. Another classmate, Shee Han also wanted to see china phone, so she tag along with us. A few days ago on Monday Melvin and I already went to Sim Lim and saw that at one of the shops, a Singaporean Sales man is selling the video player that melvin wanted. 50 dollars for HD-ready player and 70 dollars for Full HD player. thats why melvin wanted to go ytd to get the full HD player which is proclaimed to be able to play all formats. However, yesterday, When we went to that same shop, An MIC (Made in China) salesman was selling the same products. When we reached the shop, a Typical Singaporean was asking how it works , as u know Singaporeans are more kiasu and more weary about the lousy china products. Then the China Salesman is like very "YAYA" and didnt seem to be so interested in explaining how it works. Then the Sinngaporean customer said in chinese with a smile : "You like that can come Singapore do business ah?" Then the MIC salesman replied in chinese with a smile also : "Of course! Why cant I?" Then despite all these, after the Singaporean customer went away, We approached the MIC salesman and asked : "can we try the player?" Cos I asked mel to bring along his HDD with videos to try out first .. MIC products eh.. LOW QUALITY! So MUST try first. He let us try and guess what, the HD-ready player cannot play certain avi formats den the MIC man gave some excuses and say the format isnt right and another player can play everything. So OKAY , we went and try that. Really it works.

So we went and asked for the price . The MIC salesman said that the HD-ready player costs 70 (which is actually 50 when we went on Monday) and the full-HD player costs 100 (which is supposed to be 70) I remembered the price but I dare not say because I am in front of the MIC man. THEN the so called "Can play every format" player costs 180!! WTH!!!! What a scam... On monday, the salesman claimed that the 50 dollar1 can play everything.. now onli can play a few formats and then the one which can play all formats costs 180!

I know Melvin sure very despo for the player so I asked: "Can we have a discount?" Then he say he only can sell to us at 170 cos he going to close shop soon. I asked Melvin again ... "ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO BUY?" cos i know it isnt really right already. He wanted so okay he went to pay for it via nets. GUESS WHAT HE TYPED 173.. Then I asked : where the 3 dollars came from? then he said its nets fee... WAHLAO! MIC MAN WITH BAD ATTITUDE! Okay never mind.

OkAY SAME MAN WITH SAME ATTITUDE AH. SHEE HAN ASKED THE PRICE FOR SOME CHINA PHONE COS SHE WANTED TO BUY. THEN, THE SAME MIC MAN SAID: "240 INCLUDE EXTRA BATTERY POUCHAND SCREEN PROTECTER. " AND THEN WHEN WE WENT DOWNSTAIRS AND SAW THE SAME PHONE, iT ONLI COSTS 185 WITH THE 4GB KINGSTON MICRO SD. WTH MIC SCAM MAN IN SIM LIM SQUARE.

Now you know why I am so weary about all these MIC people? Hais...
Nothing to say about these pple anymore.
Just hope that they would change.. Or else I tell you they wouldnt go far!

2009-08-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

I m free now so heres some updates :)

Studies

- Last paper this wed! after that I am FREE! WOOHOO!

Music life

- Lots and lots of things more for me to struggle with
- tried playing 2 octaves of C key with both hands today. I cant believe that its so hard. But it really is. (especially with the metronome!)
- Changing of chords are okay. Just need more practise and patience.
- Guitar strumming not yet mastered

My life

Well. Its just that same feeling... Hais... Sometimes I think I am just a coward. Everything also dun dare to speak up. Well, if anything goes wrong, I only had myself to blame. Goh Chang Hua PLEASE WAKE UP!

2009-08-21T15:37:00.002+08:00

Updates Updates :)

Studies

-All projects finished
-2 more exams to go.
-Nsm exam today
-Maths exam next wed..

The rest will update soon.. :) hahax..

2009-08-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

Well lets update update ! :)

Studies
- Long report almost done
- Mad Project 40 percent done only... still need to do servlet and data store~! Help!
- Flash project havent touch as at yet. cos dun know how to start. same goes to most of my classmates :)
- Next thurs - Maths Quiz
- Next fri - Nsm test
- Next next wed - Maths final exam

Wah... This stressed! see la... so if u guys think poly is slack, think again ! :)

My life

Today went for driving lesson. diaox sia the instructor was sleeping in the car as I was driving. But then my concentration level for today isnt high also. Cos i was deep in thought about a certain someone. Hahax.. Whilst the instructor was closing his eyes to sleep as I stopped at a traffic light junction , suddenly, a motorcycle stopped beside us! Guess what! Its the instructor in charge of our driving group. I think he is out to spot check. Hahax... Kana caught red-handed sia. The guy waved and smiled to me and pointed to my instructor, who was sleeping.. I didnt really know how to react, so i just smiled back and my instructor kept on sleeping. funny sia.... I think hes gonna get it after work... haha... pity him! Hais

My feelings

Hmm... I just know I have some deep feelings but I just don't have the courage to say out. I just hope that somewhere soon, I would have a chance to express it. I just wanna say that what I am doing is never because of anyone else or because of a purpose. Only god knows my feelings now..

2009-08-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

Hana Yori Dango 2 is super touching... Made me cry every time I watch the same part over and over... Is it that I am too emotional? Maybe... hahax... :P Love is just amazing ya... especially when both parties love each other dearly!! going through thick and thin together... :) Hahax... Love is never considered love when it comes with a motive or without sincerity... Hahax... :)

Gotta be super busy tmr to next week.... but I am still spending time for god and fellowship no matter what!

Sometimes I just want to say something very much but too afraid of rejection...
Sometimes I just want to learn more but I dare not ask
Sometimes I am just dun dare to ask so much when inside of me, I just want to.. I just want to!
Sometimes I just just want to do things so badly and I just cannot voice out..
Sometimes I just want to get closer to others but then I am afraid they would think that I do it for a purpose but actually I know truely well that I am not..

My piriorities
1st - God
2nd - The one I love and myself
3rd - My cg people / my family

2009-08-06T20:27:00.002+08:00

This is week 16 of the semester... Semester is ending at week 18 ... so only 2 more weeks to go... 2 more weeks for my classmates and I to complete Flash game, MAD midlet and long Report.... Semestral exam would be after week 18...and I am sort of worried about my maths too... normal distribution and binomial distribution... My prediction is that I would be super super busy next week and next next week... after that would be studying for my maths exam and after that, I am totally free for 7weeks of long holidays... The projects are giving me a headache but i know I had the holy spirit within me... :) Hehes... My traffic police test would be on 11/9/09 ... I just wish that I would pass my first attempt and get my driving licence.... As for my piano, I am progressing slowly... but constantly... by forcing myself to practice at least 4 bars of sight reading every time I am free at home... I just feel that I need more encouragement towards my music stuff... Hais... Lord I just pray that everything would go fine and I would be able to end this semester well with good grades...

2009-08-06T12:22:00.002+08:00

To-Do list

-MAD project

-Long report

-Flash Game project

Upcoming Events

-Nsm test (21 Aug)
-Maths Exam (26 Aug)
-Driving Test (11 Sep)

Update more soon.. *Faint*

2009-08-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

Busy week busy week eh! Hahax.... Wed --> chiong NSM project till 4am... thurs--> chiong NSM report friday --> went out for midnight movie .... Busy seh... Friday is sorta a bad day siah...Phone ran out of batt in the morning when i m in sch... and then i was like supposed to sms everyone regarding the friday fellowship... And guess what... I missed out on a few ppl when i forward my smses ! whoops!! Super guilty la ...wahlao! Zzzzz... I dun quite used to using my phone ba... I thought I sent to all le but actually i only sent to some .... Windows mobile so hard to use sia...Zzzz ... So guilty sia... Ruixin actually want come de... den I din msg her!! Aiya... lucky she dint rly blame me... hehes!!! :P ANyways , tmr i wld be gng for FOP .... Hehes... My life had started afresh and I know what I am heading for already...If Satan ever reminds me of my past, I will remind him of his future! I would never let my past affect my future and I am sure that I would learn from my mistakes every time I fall :)

2009-07-06T13:59:00.004+08:00

Long time no blog... cos too lazy to post... :( hais... Btw, here are some updates...

- BBDC pract stage 3.06
- Gotten my piano and bought my Sony Ericsson Xperia 1 thanks to god!
- Mid Semester test is Over!
- Learning piano sight reading
- Yet to complete my flash project

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I m really bk to normal school life... so boring!!! Hais. same old lecturers and their " catch no ball " lessons... I just recently got my first piano and lo and behold! THE SHOP OWNER FORGOT TO FINISH TUNING SOME OF THE KEYS! Wahlao... Today the tuner's gonna come n tune it!! Wah! Just praying that he would do a good job... Hais... Btw, ytd I went for my cell group buffet... The food is really not bad wor! but some dishes are really cmi.... Lols... can sae quite worth my 15 dollars! :) hees! My Xperia 1 is nice... no lag... but then, its a bit hard to use cos its the 1st time i am using PDA phone... Lols....

2009-06-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

BBDC Story of the day!
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Today is a BBDC day!! went driving 100 mins non-stop... but its fun!! Hehes... I drove to jurong there and explored the roads there... lols... Heavy traffic siah... xD but the traffic is smooth until there is a big ROAD HOG!!! Another L plate private learner going at 40 Km/h on the 70 km/h at the 3 lane road at the straight road linking from BBDC to jurong... Diaox... The instructor oso dun let me overtake him... so in the end, I guai guai follow behind him for quite some time... Hahax... Looking 4ward to my Friday BBDC lesson :P Hopefully, I can drive even further!!! To bukit timah there! lols... During the lesson, my instructor kept telling me that I am going to exceed the speed limit... X_X but I just dun like to drive too slowly... Lols... Today I didnt stall my engine at all... but my car is a bit jerky... cos i release clutch too fast... too kan chiong to chiong the streets liao... xD Another thing... I always forget to check blind spot when turning left.... (No real drivers will bother de)... But I had to make it a habit... cos Pract test they will check me.. X_X...

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Tmr, I would be going to sch with mel and sue to watch "Ah Long" (Sue's suggestion) Lols... Den we would be gng to Square 2... I think mel is gng to buy that Korean Rice cake agn! X_X

2009-06-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

i am sort of lazy to turn on my laptop as i had just woken up so here i am blogging on my handphone :) haha... Here are some updates about me ... Firstly, i had block booked 2 driving slots per week from tmr to end of july ... :) its fun but also tiring ... Haha... Secondly, my 3 weeks break had just started and i am also getting very bored at home... Thirdly, i have yet to study for my mid semester test ... Hais ... Life is always as bored as usual ... How i wished i could feel better ... :( going for bbdc again tmr afternoon ... Maybe after that go grandma place slack ...

2009-06-03T16:15:00.002+08:00

2009-06-03T16:10:00.002+08:00

Sien sia... Cant wait to get my piano sia... I wonder how good a 2ns hand piano I can get with SGD $1500 ... Sien sia... I just want an average piano can alr... one that has a decent sound quality and most impt... a good piano touch... so that I can practice playing my scores... X_X Hahax... Btw, I just topped up 400+++ into my BBDC acc... and block booked arnd 12 pract lessons... 60 bucks each sia... so I mus really try my very very best to pass 2 chapters every lesson so I wont spend so much on it... So far my driving is going quite well... I know god will bless me in each and every lesson that I attend and I will be able to make full use of the 60 dollars and 100 mins I am going to spend each lesson :P

2009-06-02T14:24:00.002+08:00

Well... Holidays are coming next week.... I would be super bored agn... jz hate holidays... esp when there is MST again after that.... Hais.... Currently in lecture.... Sorta feeling quite drowsy and tired.... No mood to have Doraemon's boring lecture.... Hais.....

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Things to be done

-Concept Paper by friday
-Study for Maths Quiz (Thurs)
-Chiong BBDC lessons

Current WishList (Items Only)

-Upright Piano
-Crumpler Bag
-Driving Licence
-Car(I hope I would get it when I come out to work)

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Thats all for nw bahz... Update more soon.... :P

2009-05-29T19:32:00.001+08:00

2009-05-27T19:41:00.002+08:00

Life is never easy ya... I know many of u guys also agree with me here... But all we have to do is to think positively... But jus saying is obviously mus easier than really doing it... cos sometimes, you just cannot control your own thinking... Things that happened in the past, even things in our childhood life will always affect our personality greatly...

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School Life

School life is average... with MAD project coming.... I did well in my RWP presentation though... Thank god!! :P but for MAD, yesterday I just had a "Catch no ball " lesson... the teacher jz went through too fast and I cannot even manage to copy his work... hais...

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Piano Life

Although I improved quite a lot in my sight reading, I am still quite far from playing a piano piece... Currently, I am learning single hand sight reading and it is also not very easy... (I am finishing the book soon) ... I am gonna get my first upright piano soon.

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Driving Life
- 5th practical lesson
-Practical stage 1.01 - 1.07
-Out driving on the road alr :)
-Progressing well(Just need more encouragement and support from family)
-Pass BTT and FTT but yet to go for my theory lessons

2009-05-22T22:33:00.001+08:00

First Love (Utada Hikaru)

Saigo no kisu wa tabako no flavor ga shita (The last kiss tasted like tobacco)
Nigakute setsunai kaori (the bitter and sad scent)
Ashita no imagoro ni wa(Tmr at this time)
Anata wa doko ni irun darou(Where wld u be? )
Dare wo omotterun na ha (who wld u be thinking of?)

(Chorus!! :P)
You are always gonna be my love!
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo(Even if I fall in love again with sum1 someday)
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one!
Ima wa mada kanashii lovu songu (Now its still a sad love song)
Atarashii uta utaeru made (Until I can sing a new song)

Tachitomaru jikan ga ugoKidasou to shiteru (The time that had stopped seems to start moving)
Wasuretakunai koto bakari (Just all the things I don't want to forget)
Ashita no imagoro ni wa (Tmr at this time)
Watashi wa kitto naiteru (I will surely be crying)
Anata wo omotterun darou (Probably thinking of you)

(Chorus 2!! :P)
You will always be inside my heart!
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara (Since there will always be the place for you)
I hope that I have a place in your heart too!
Now and forever you are still the one!
Ima wa mada kanashii lovu songu (Now its still a sad love song)
Atarashii uta utaeru made (Until I can sing a new song)
You are always gonna be my love!
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo(Even if I fall in love again with sum1 someday)
I will remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one!
Mada kanashii lovu songu (Now its still a sad love song)
Now and forever

(~End~)
(Typed out by Goh Chang Hua 22nd May09 10.30pm)
(Adapted from Youtube video "http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTHjcIaT1AQ")

2009-05-20T15:57:00.003+08:00

I was on the train to sis Deborah house for piano lesson and I was like asking god what should I do next and the only clear reply is the word... "Wait!" But wait for who and what? I dun know exactly what god has planned for me in my life but i think I should better follow his words.... Losing someone important is tramatic... but then I think god has everything planned for me ... "I will respect your decision bahz... but then I dun know what exactly had I done wrong siah!"

Lord I just pray that you will guide me through my life and to live life to the fullest and eventually get whoever is meant for me... I promise will not bear any grudge against anyone for too long no matter what happens to me! And I will of cos treasure everything you had blessed me with! Amen!

What I pray for today is that I want my first --- second hand upright piano, which will cost about 1500 +-+- I am selling my old psp and trying to get tutoring job for sec 1-4 to get the money....

2009-05-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Words of Affirmation
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Words of Affirmation:		9
Quality Time:		8
Physical Touch:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		0

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2009-05-18T23:37:00.001+08:00

Today is a very normal Monday... I guess I dun need to elaborate on what is normal bahz... Hahax... or else it would be too wordy... :P

2009-05-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hi all... Sorry I didnt had time to post my happenings since friday up onto my blog because I reached home very late at night and I am very busy... Hahax... However, I have had my best bday.... This is the first time I had so many people wishing me birthday and celebrating it with me... singing happy bday song... :) Hehex... Lets recount...

Friday 15th May 2009

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This is my bday... I had my usual 8-10 am nsm lesson... den aft that mel , sue, waiyu and me go FC4 to eat... till abt 11.30 den me n mel left cos I had my bbdc lesson ... Hahax... During my BBDC lesson, I realised that I had not driven for quite some time alr due to the loss of my IC... whenever I start moving the car, I always tend to put a bit too much on the accelerator and there is a "VROOM!!! " sound... its not even and there was little coordination on the clutch ... the reason is that I dare not release the clutch too much cos i stepped on the accerator too much... and it was not at its biting point.... Thank god I had fixed that problem during the lesson... hahax... and also the change of gear to gear 3... Will be covering gear 4 and abv on the road next lesson if i do well :P Hehes... Aft my BBDC lesson, I took 188 to cck and met up with mel and went with him to woodlands.. (we were intending to go to the party world there) We waited for sue there for abt half hr den we went to KTV... sad to say, woodlands' outlet ran outta rooms so we had to go to yishun outlet... it was a hazzle but we really enjoyed it... hahas... thanks to mel and sue, they paid for my entrance fee because its my birthday... Thanks a lot ya!!! Hehex.... Aft that we went to KFC to have our dinner and from there we headed for home! :P

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Sat 16th May 09

At last I had a chance to go back to teens... there had been no service for 2 weeks alr... Hehes... I was given a surprise siah... Aft service, i went to toilet and when i came out, lily was at the door with a birthday cake and a candle... although only lily and daryl from our cg were there, the rest of the teens sang happy birthday to me also... Hahax... I was super pleased lahz :) hahax... this is really my FIRST time ever in my entire life having such a wonderful birthday!!!!! Wahahahaax..!! then again at the food centre where we sat together, the teens suddenly sang happy birthday to me again!! Wahahax... and passed me a birthday card containing everyone's wishes and signature for me... :P hahax... I will scan and upload it if i have the time... hahax... Thanks a lot to all the teens for making my 19th birthday such a memorable one!! :) I am starting to feel a belonging to my church even though there is no family members with me in my church.... Hahax... Thank god!! :) Wahahax... Aft eating, i went home and just just nice ready to watch boys over flowers introduced by melvin(Which I promised him to watch) Hahax... the show is nice wor... abt a school for rich ppl and there is a bully grp called F4... hahax... thats my lovely saturday!~

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Sunday 17th May 2009

Today went to church as per normal... actually I told uncle patrick not to fetch me there de... cos I think its really isnt good to be taking his car at this point of time even on the account that he is my good fren... but then becos today his car got a lot of empty seats, I got the chance... Thanks to uncle patrick lor... Hehes... I think i really owe him lots of favors since I knew him... Hahax... Thank god for everything bahz... :P Aft church, grace, roy, john, eugene and me went to mount favor to scout the area for some upcoming church event... Hehes...its fun sia... but its tiring of cos... we started walking from vivo... then end up at buono vista that NUH there 4+ hrs later... we passedmy many places... Frm mount fabor, to telok blangah .. to fort canning and many others before we finished scouting the whole place... hahax... we saw monkeys and squirrels there too... hahax.... Too long to elaborate everything but were really very very tired after that.... We took a bus(I forgot which) to jurong to have our dinner, then we headed for home! Jurong entertainment is closed!!! bring back good memories siah... hais... sad sia...

2009-05-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hmms... Just wanna make a quick summary of myself of what I think of myself now...

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I am
-Decisive towards certain people but choose not to decide towards certain click of people
-I am definitely not thick-skinned by the way I am... but then, when I am determined, I can do anything just to try to achieve my goals ya :P (unless I get discouraged)
-Quiet when in a group... but quite sociable when together with 1-2 people
-someone who can forgive people easily... but forgetting is a bit harder... but i will of cos try my best...(I was not like that in the past)
-doesnt really always look at negative things of my past... However, the same thing happening to me in future will still remind me of em...
-Willing to dedicate my whole heart for someone who is worthy of my love and of cos, she must be the person I love.
-a person who believes that everything is possible through god's grace.
-an emotional person...
-eventually 19
:P
overall, I am someone who can adapt to circumstances.... :P

2009-05-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Tml is my birthday... :P Mel and Susanty said they want to treat me go sing karaoke tmr... :) so good ... but I really dun quite know how to sing X_X Btw, tmr I got my driving lesson at 12.20... sue also have her GEMS... so aga aga arond there release... then we will go... I ask mel sit in my BBDC car tml he duwan sia... hahax... nobody pei me go lesson b4... ZzZzZzzz.. lols... Okie lahz... gng 19 tmr!! Woohoo!!! Time flies yah!!!

2009-05-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

I got 90 percent for both my Lab test and Quiz today.... Thank god! :P Lucky last fri I got study with mel...wahahahax... Btw, I dun quite like the MAD teacher... I think he lacks care and concern for pupils... His teaching is not bad... but what we expect of him is not to be so ignorant about our grades and stuff... Show more care to the students ya... :P Dun everything also say... I can do nothing about it... but in fact, the other lecturers can ... I dun like to criticize people but then this is what I feel ya... no offense... :(

2009-05-12T13:19:00.002+08:00

Hais... What to do now sia... hais...ltr got quiz + lab test... now no mood to study... zzz... Hais... I just hope that what u all dun like me to do just tell me straight bahz.... hais... or else i rly dun know what to do now liao.... Hais.... Btw, I am not a thick-skinned person .... Hais.... I strive for what i want... but then... the conditions of things now are like totally hopeless for me... what exactly had I done wrong? why must you treat me like this?!?!?!? I really dun understand... Hais...

2009-05-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

Hmms... I had been searching many kinds of websites for tests of my personality... and I had found 1 interesting webby to get it done... Woots... so happy :P Its really too many for me to post up today but I am very glad I can learn to know myself more... Hahax... No matter who eventually would end up with me, be it her or not her, I will let god decide for me ... It takes two hands to clap ya! :P but I really want to do my part to treasure my partner no matter what!!! :P I gonna study more about love relations( my General Elective Module) in school... Hehes... Through there, I would know more about how to maintain my r/s in future and never fail.... and I am also gotta take up phychology next sem.... Hehes... emotions of people are real impt... hehex... Today is mother's day... In church service, I really realised that we humans dont really cherish what we have currently... its onli when we lost them then we come to regret it... Hais... I dun need a gf to satisfy any of my physical desires... I just need someone who could really be serious and willing to not give up on me no matter what happens... Someone who is always there even when I turn ugly or met with accidents.... Someone who is willing to go through thick and thin together with me... Someone whom I can really trust to put my whole life in... Is it really that hard?? Btw, I dun believe in love at first sight... Yes... you may like someone easily... but then.... its just a liking... and what you are looking at is appearance and personality in front of others... True love takes quite a lot of time to cultivate... Its a two way process.... I just hope that I would have come to my senses by now and stop thinking too much.... (Although I cant help it) ... Leave it to god bahz... I dun bear any grudges really ... so if possible please do befriend me again... you are still very impt to me even until now... cos you are the one who changed my life... even as a friend, you are special... Sometimes, I just really feel like crying... hais.... :( I am really lonely now... How I wished I had someone whom I can share my feelings with... The feeling is real bad.... :( Btw, Melvin... you are a very good friend... hahax... its onli when problems crop up then suddenly u realise who are the people who would stand up for you.... :)

2009-05-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

Today's happenings is average... As usual, uncle patick sent to to church... (A million thanks to him ) hahax.... after church, I went for lunch with HT3 , cher young , alisha.. bla bla bla... hahax... then after that we went to KAPT underground and play NF with cy... woots... Alisha was doing her maths ... I helped her a bit ...hahax... cant believe that I am already on the verge of forgetting my cos rule soon... (heng never forget) hahax... long time nv do sec 4 maths liao... woots... I jus love teaching people... its like my passion :P hehes... Tmr is another school day for me!! No holiday for poly students :( but who cares... its still better than staying at home alone, which is super boring... Btw, I believe that god will someday make things happen again... :) I know the situation now is devastating... but I had to bear with it... :P

2009-05-09T21:41:00.003+08:00

Hi all ... Now to update my past few days :P Being carefree and not thinking so much really works a lot... Hahax... enjoying the pleasures of life that god had granted us.... Why bother so much abt your future when god has it all planned for you... Hahax... Now ... recounting... I didnt have bible study on thurs evening because Lily got something on... Thus, I went straight home to put down my lappy and stuff then head off to "lollipop" organised my my school with Susanty and Jerry... hahax...Friday, which is yesterday.. Melvin came to my house to revise our maths and MAD ... hahax.. I really love studying with him... hahax... He stayed at my house till 2am... cos he live very near to me... He also transfered me quite an amount of Korean music MVs and performance ... super nice sia... Tohoshinki , Wonder Girls and SNSD de... Woots... Overall... Nobody by wonder girls is super nice siah... hahax... followed by Tohoshinki songs... hahax... and GEE by SNSD... :P Today is vesak day.. no church... so sien sia.... hahax... whole day at home facebook, blog , one piece... (ep317) catching up real fast :P Hope next week would also be a smooth week for me ...

2009-05-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

Life is just like a roller-coaster ride... Sometimes very happy and sometimes very sad... Hahax... Actually speaking, I really dont know abt gals' emotions in the past... hahahax... I always thought if I prove to her that she is very impt to me, the gal will do the same to me... hahax... Sorry la.. cos i really want her to treat me like that... Hahax... I didnt expect gals to be scared off and away... Hahax... Now I know!! Hahax... Anyways... I just treat my gf they way i want her to treat me... exactly... and expecting her to treat me the exact same way... My approach is obviously wrong.. hahax... No matter what happens now, I will have to bear all the consequences for not knowing too well about gals... hahax... Yes!! She is obviously Very Impt to me even till now... Jolene!! Hais... I told god that I really wanna to have a golden chance to prove my love for her someday.... Yes.. I may seem very emotional when it comes to separating... but thats me... that time my old china tenant left me den I also cried for quite some time... cos she was just like a gan-ma to me :) Hais... Jolene, you are not like any other gal... every time i see you, I am very happy ya noe! Hahax... Love is everlasting... :P That time I was analysing, and that somehow I think god told me that I do need to love myself and god before I can love anyone.... and I think I am also very impt to myself de... Although I say i may do stupid things, I dun think i will ever have the courage to even do that de... cos ending a life is eternal and its against god's will.... its just like losing my 8-years long close friend sui how... Because of a small one-day quarrel, at that time I was too childish and said stupid things like "From today onwards, you are not my friend anymore" and I really regretted it... He is also a very good friend to me... Hais... After so many lessons, by now , I already know what life is like.... :) Hehex... all I can blame is myself for everything... Jolene is a very good gf! I really hope that someday, her efforts wouldnt go un-rewarded!! God bless!!! P.S. I love god and myself too ! :)

2009-05-05T13:00:00.002+08:00

Swine Flu arhh!! Hahax... Suks sia... Entering my school now is such a pain... everytime also mus show them my student admin card first de... But then still... no lecturers will care about whether exactly we have swince flu or not... the whole things seems to be like... just for show only... hahax... who cares anyways... poly lecturers are like that de.... mus adapt de... hahax.... Woots... I know some things are not meant to be said... but I dun really feel very well nowadays :(

2009-05-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

2009-05-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hey all!! Many many thingy thingy tu update wor! Just watched X-men With my Cg...super nice sia... maybe u guys may want to give it a try :P Hehex.... Life in school suks... Especially the MAD module.... The teacher hack care hack care de... Our class dun have class rep mahz... so when it cameto ordering books, I volunteered to help out... The teacher told me it is at the co-op shop... But I always see it closed everyday last week from monday to friday... den i feedbacked to him... then he say... I see it open leh... but when I go, it is still closed.... den eventually, one malay classmate pointed out... its not Co-Op shop, its the shop beside Food Court 3 offering photocopying services... and I was like Diaox... I went everyday to check if the co-op shop would be open den 1 week later den realised that it is not co-op shop... Was super- pissed with the teacher that week luh... but then its ok now... Forgive n forget bahz... Hahax... Just pray that he wont be so ignorant.... Care more about us pls... Its the mere duty of a lecturer...

Besides... I found 1 verse in the bible that means a lot

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1st cor chap 13 :) memorised the chapter liao X_X

Verse 1-3

If i speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith,so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, i am nothing. If I give away all my possessions , and if i hand over my body so that i may boast, but donot have love, i gain nothing

This verses shows that without love, everything that you do is totally useless... Even if u have all the powers in the world, u also cannot do anything worthwhile... If you are a husband, love your wife before u do anything for her. If you are giving offerings to god, love him before u give... If you are helping a friend solve his emotional problems , learn to love him/her first... Only with love, things and actions may then prove to be meaningful! :P

Verse 4-8

Love is patient. Love is Kind. Love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way. It is not irritable or resentful. It does not rejoice in wrongdoings, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.But for prophecies, they will come to an end.as for tongues, it will cease. as for knowledge,it will come to an end

Thus through these verses, we can conclude that unlike knowledge,prophecy or even praying, true love does not come to an end no matter what... :P Love is kind. It does not consist of boasting,arrogance ,rudeness or any other motives.... Love is even more powerful than prayer and words.... Have the love for god and your love ones and the actions will come automatically... :P Love your family and partner! Love god! For true love will not fade but words and actions will ! :P

2009-04-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

School life isnt easy this sem ... The modules arent as easy as year one modules.... Esp the modula named MAD(Mobile Applications Device) Hahax.. really will go MAD de studying for that... hahax... tmr is MAD quiz... really MAD hor!?!?! 2nd week nia give first quiz liao... diaox... hahax... isnt easy also... hais.... Past weekend had been a very tiring but enjoyable one... Hew Kok Tong came to my house to play dota... Hahax. (We used to call him Hew Kao Tong) hahax... Similarly to my sec school days, he ton at my house play dota all the way till 4am before we really cannot take it anymore... hahax... Seeing him really reminds of the days in sec 5 .... where we played dota in my house during O lvls.. hahax... Due to some reasons I cannot let him go in my room and sleep... and i duwan to pang seh him to sleep alone in the balcony... so I pei him sleep in the balcony lor... sat night we slept on the floor of my bro room... (no mattress) super hard sia... hahax... cos my bro room got air con... hahax... Talk more next time :) P.S. I am already trying my best to make you feel most relaxed ... So relax! :P

2009-04-23T17:12:00.000+08:00

Okie... Now recounting about yesterday... I had piano lesson from 10.45-11.30 am at sis deborah house... (I had no school on Wed) After that, I went to parklane mall to meet my close friends from sec school... wei ping , sui how, kok tong, kang yang , keong shing and another of their ite friends... We played dota (lan) from 2-5 ... after that I went to Kang Yang house to try out his piano (How I wished I had one at home T_T ) Reached home onli at 10 plus ... Today's school is boring as usual... with many many many things to remember... I am starting to loathe programming... hahax... (although it is fun, it is HARD!) lols... Our new class, 2A03 have yet to have a president and a vice... cos all the leaders are all transfered into BSS option... I was asked to help the class to make orders for printing of a school-made textbook and Wahlao!!! The Co-Op shop dunno fly until where liao!!! Stressed siah... Dots!! I REALLY DUN WISH TO BE THE CLASS REP!!! Hahax... gimme CCA points oso useless de... hahax.. Okay la... Blog till here... Now in sch library waiting for Lily to come for my usual bible study :) hahax

2009-04-21T12:48:00.000+08:00

Today is the 2nd day of school... And there are many things that I have to do... I just went to make a replacement for my school admin card... (due on thurs) I also have yet to make a replacement for my school ez-link card... using adult card w/o concession is just a nuisance!! Hais... Just yesterday, I was chosen to help the class with the printing of the MAD (Mobile Applications Development) textbooks... and the Co-Op shop is closed!!! Wah! Stressed seh! Our class now have no representative or assistant to manage this... I just hope all these will go on smoothly... Having MAD practical lessons later... Similarly like Game development for WWW , it also needs us students to use Java... Its really driving me crazy real soon... Oh ya hor, btw, the love relations module is super interesting... Hahax... Really meaningful! Hahax.. shall elaborate more when the notes for the module comes out! :)

2009-04-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

2009-04-16T00:44:00.001+08:00

Hais... Life is always that miserable for me... Hais... Everything just seemed like a dream.... Its like waking up from a nice dream... Hais... never mind luh... have to face reality anyways... I will always remember what I once used to have as my precious memories! Anyways, school gotta start soon... Timetable like crap... Wed is free but then mon,tue and thurs 8-5pm lesson .... Diaox... I really hope that I can have that bestie I used to have in my sec school supporting me and hearing out my problems whenever I needs her... God Bless us! Amen!